27.1.08
NOTE TO SELF:THEY can say, ANYTHING they want to say. try to bring me DOWN, but i WON'T face the GROUND. i will RISE steadily SAILING out of their REACH! although they do TRY, hard to make me feel that i don't matter at all,but i REFUSE to FALL!
so with that in mind, COME ON! CONTINUE BITCHING ABOUT ME! cause i am right here, and will try my very best to NOT CARE WHATEVER SHIT YOU BITCH ABOUT ME. i will eventually get use to it! don't just whisper, SHOUT IT OUT LOUD! do it to my face! go and tell the WHOLE WIDE WORLD! come, say how UGLY i am. how FAT i am. and how BAD my DRESSING is. you know what, it doesn't really matter on how i dress. i might as well come to school in my fbts and my pe tshirt! i really don't get it on how or why my dressing is affecting you, though i am very SURE there are OTHER things! I DONT EVEN KNOW YOU in the damn first place! and there YOU are, BITCHING about ME! can YOU like do SOMETHING more PRODUCTIVE! why WASTE your TIME on such a STUPID thing! geeeeez. why must YOU put me BACK into my OLD ways! it's because of YOU that this fucked up nonsense THING, which is taking me fucking YEARS to LET GO, is coming BACK into my ALREADY SHIT LIFE! i already SUFFERED ENOUGH for YEARS but yet somehow YOU really like to make other people LIFE MISERABLE! THANK YOU oh so very much! it's very THOUGHTFUL of YOU! by any chance if I DIE, BLEED or JUMP OFF a building, ALL THE BEST TO YOU!
--HE, who is up above, ONCE AGAIN, i ask of YOU, HEAR my THIS PRAYER! HELP ME PULL THROUGH THIS! since this is the CHALLENGE YOU GIVE ME TO OVERCOME, I WILL DO IT! CAUSE I KNOW YOU WILL HELP ME, in the end! i stay here , EVERY NIGHT, PRAYING TO YOU! PLEASE don't let me DOWN! i know YOU WONT! YOU will GUIDE ME! : )
amin.
