9.7.08
i've lost my special order. i've lost a piece of me.
i'm losing interest in my daily routines. i'm losing appetite. i'm losing life. i'm sad. i cry. and still crying; because of you and your love.
i've lost my love. i want to die. i want to kill myself. i'm overwhelmed.
i'm tired. i'm hurt. i pray. and still praying; for you, for us.
i'm living a miserable life now. i'm living a dreadful life now.
i have a stupid life. i hate life. i hate myself. i hate love. i hope. and still hoping; for you and your love. i need time. i need to let go. i need to move on. i need to be strong. i need to heal. i need chocolates. i need ice cream. i need laughter. i need smiles. i need friends. i need you.
i want this to stop. i want the heartbeat to stop. i want life to stop. i want everything to stop. i feel pain. i feel hurt. i feel useless. i feel stupid. i feel lost. god, help me. please help me.
