6.1.09

TWENTY ZERO EIGHT;
how evil you are. goddamnit. i assume you were very happy to see me standing there all alone, crying, praying and whateverr. stop it will you. stop all your unhappiness pouring onto me. can't you see that i am exhausted, tired and about to give up? the fear i am developing all because of you. and the guilt, the damn guilt. (insert words) i suggest you should start asking your friend to shine some light on me this time round : ) thank you, please.
TWENTY ZERO NINE;
so now, i am putting my trust on you. i pray that you shall not follow that of your friend's. i pray that you will teach me the meaning of happiness. i pray that you will guide me the whole way through. do not pull me back down, please. i am begging you. let the love of my family and friends fill me up! : ) again, thank you please.

silence;
my god, it was so beautiful when you smiled.
boy, you moulded the heart of me.
painful as it is,
dear i love you. and miss you.
but STEP AWAY.

with lovee;

a touch of jollification ;